This week has seen the return of my old enemy diverticulitis. Mr D snuck up on me on Monday. Just a niggle to begin with and I tried to ignore him, but he persisted and I succumbed spectacularly with fever, nausea and horrific pain. I’m now off work with antibiotics and pain relief and back on that merry-go-round of ill health.
I’m not surprised he made his presence known. I let him in. Throughout a stressful last few months – grief, moving house, financial pressure, job pressure – I was not looking after myself in the way I know prevents Mr D paying a visit. Not looking after myself in a way that keeps me healthy, lean, fit and full of energy. Not looking after myself in a way that helps me cope with stress from a place of health and strength.
I’ve forgotten how good fit and healthy feels. I’ve allowed myself to get lazy, get complacent and put foods in my body that I know are not good for me. I’ve forgotten how moving my body and lifting heavy makes me feel strong and invincible and is the best stress relief around. I’ve taken the easy path and forgotten how the discipline and commitment to being healthy is who I am. I’ve lost the real me.
I preach these values to my clients. That its not about a tight butt, having abs or muscly arms. That as we get older, its more important to eat well and train for health and vitality. To prevent lifestyle diseases, to maintain what we have for as long as we can and yes, to look and feel the best we can.
The truth is I am feeling old. Older than I have in a long time. My skin is starting to look dry. My eyes have lost some of their sparkle. My flexibility has diminished. I’ve gained a few kilos and my clothes feel tight. I’m not liking how I feel.
So the rot stops. Now. This moment. I’m getting back to walking my talk, practising what I preach and being the best version I know I can be. I can’t exercise at the moment while I’m unwell but I can start eating better. Remember it is all about what you CAN do in the now, rather than focusing on what you can’t do or waiting for the perfect time.
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